i find it regrettable that its come to this, that i've been fucking blocked and deleted
i also find that inconceivable

however, i guess it was my fault it turned out that way because despite her efforts, i just didnt give a shit

its regrettable we can't stay as friends
its inconceivable that she would choose to do what she did

but if it was my fault for how it turned out, it was her fault for making me be that way. either way, it doesn't matter who's to blame, it's over and what i want is NOT "the pain to last for the next boring years to come" as Jac had put in the prev post

just turn the pages and close the chapter.

the chapter for mel is only bookmarked because the bitch owes me break-up sex, which although depressing, would be only right and besides, they say time heals wounds. and the only reason why break-up sex is depressing is because you know its over after that BUT if its like 2 years after the break-up it would be less depressing.......... im ramblin now but the point is, a debt is a debt

anyway i got what i asked for in a way. what i didn't expect to feel was... feeling the same way X_X